Monday, February 11, 2008

Get in Touch with Your Inner Pain

Sunday's session at Jonas' and Kat's BE workshop started with a warning that we would have to work harder, dig deeper. We needed to really let our deepest fears, angers, hates, sorrows etc emerge in our paintings. The kind of joy we admire in Jonas' work is only possible by first unloading all the baggage that is holding us back. Now I had been having a good time and didn't really want to drag up old issues let alone waste good paint on them. I should have struck firm but also thought I should conform to these expectations. So I painted about my experiences with health crisis, typical dysfunctional family problems and gloomy winter depression. What emerged was angerlite. Jonas wanted to see more angst, more blood and guts. It made me angry, I didn't want to be angry. Was he goading me to attack the paper? If so, it worked. Here is something I blasted off in a few minutes when it was clear my work was too mild. But even this one turned out to be just plain silly.


bevjackson said...

I don't think it's silly. In fact, I
like it! It has character.

Anonymous said...

DON'T THINK IT'S SILLY AT ALL EITHER, MAYBE WE SHOULD ALL HAVE A "DEMONS" SHOW. SOME OF THEM ARE DOWNRIGHT SILLY, THAT'S HOW THEY SIDLE IN AND GET FRIENDLY THEN GO FOR THE KILL! Personally, i think it's hard to programme our feelings..."better" to goad so that huge joy or anger or whatever deeper that needs to come out is a tad more zen. But you're creating like mad and that's so great. I'm jealous. Lin

Artmosphere said...

Thanks for stopping by Lin and Bev. I think a DEMONS show is a great idea! In fact let's have a Paint Your DEMONS Party, any blog readers on board?... I like it, focused anger! Fear with a focus! H